To the final days of 2009!

seeking naked female ritual members

San Diego is totally strange. I am becoming increasingly nauseaus by all the packaging, distractions, and complete confusion that has possessed this city.

BUT the weather, beaches, and sunsets are so breathtaking to the point that I almost want to highlight and delete the previous couple sentences. I don't know exactly what I am supposed to be doing here, so far I have paid way too much money for imposter nutritious food, and gotten diarrhea from one too many taquitos. Also, I don't understand why everyone slaves all their time and energy into jobs only to convert their time into presents for their consumer friends.

I don't know what I would do if I was still being dragged around by the grip of social conditioning.

past life dreams

I had a dream that took place in a historical setting, and I was a young african slave boy. My mom and sister were afraid of white people, but I didn't really care, and they were not that mean to me, at least from what I sensed in my dream. I am aboard a train, and I got curious, so I escaped from my quarters and went to the caboose, then the train hit some sort of bump, and the caboose of the train came loose from the rest of the cars being left alone on the tracks. I wanted to go catch up with the train but I thought I would get beat and blamed for the accident, so I got out but I was too afraid to walk on land, so I got in the river, even though I couldn't really swim. I don't know If I drowned our not, It seemed as thought the river got pretty violent eventually.

schools out

4 more days until we stand together like tired lambs

been awake for 35 hours

She told me that I

must remain progressive

inorder to fulfill my career direction

of moving mountains

I need to get back to studying for my finals

thinking about being topless for the rest of my life

louis wain

became increasingly ill with what has been thought to be schizophrenia. Here is the evolution of his work overtime as his illness became more severe.

I am reprogramming my brain, and my life.

six more days of cold

lucky dragons

Daydream from Katharina Knoll on Vimeo.

the shins

"Those To Come"

Eyeless in the morning sun you were
Pale and mild, a modern girl
Taken with thought, still prone to care
Makin tea in your underwear
You went out in the yard to find

Something to eat and clear your mind
Something bad inside me went away

Quaking leaves and broken light
Shifting skin the coming night
The bearers of all good things arrive
Climb inside us, twist and cry
A kiss on your molten eyes

Myriad lives like blades of grass
Yet to be realized, bow as they pass

They are cold,
Still,
Waiting in the ether,
To form,
Feel,
Kill,
Propagate,
Only to die
[x2]

Dissolve
Magically,
Absurdly,
They'll end,
Leave,
Dissipate,
Coldly
And strangely
Return

I think I'm getting taller

caffeine, carbs, protein
breakfast never seems complete
with your seat empty
-rn

Today I was thinking about Astronomer

I wonder how he is doing at the manoa park, I wonder if he ate today, I hope he knows I love him

haiku

Antler horn gripped tight

In my palm it has a pulse,

No longer lonely

-rn

"stress is basically a disconnection from the earth. A forgetting of the breath. Stress is an ignorant state. It believes that everything is an emergency. Nothing is that important. Just lie down." - Natalie Goldberg

Richard Brautigan quotes

"I've been examining half-scraps of my childhood. They are pieces of distant life that have no form or meaning. They are things that just happened like lint. "

— Richard Brautigan

“I'm afraid sometimes

you'll play lonely games too,

games you can't win

because you'll play against you”

- dr. Seuss

you plus me plus plants